Tuesday, February 28, 2012

My progress so far...

I have been struggling lately with the clothing situation! Because I am losing inches so fast, I can't (or my wallet can't) keep up. SO Value Village had their 50% off clothes sale and I decided to check it out since I was in dire need of pants. I don't want to waste money on new stuff when I will outgrow it in a month, so I got second hand clothes for the time being.

The greatest feeling in the world is trying on clothes, and going for the sizes that were the ones you "THOUGHT" you fit in... and they are toooooooo big! I have gone from size 2 and 3xl tops to size medium and size 18w pants to a size 10/11. I still have so far to go, but I am so proud of the change that I have made happen.

I have a lot of people ask me how I did it and if I can help them, but I think that everyone has to reach that point on their own. I have "dieted" on my own previously, and I was never fully committed to the lifestyle change that has to happen to KEEP the weight off. I hit that point where I stepped on the scale and I was physically disgusted with the number that I saw. When is enough enough? I will never go back!

As hard as it is to keep with the diet, and say no to the cake, ice cream, cookies, and  *DROOL* chocolate... It is worth it to look in the mirror and feel good.

Here is my progress picture for 40 lbs lost:

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Being Sick

I have been sick for a couple weeks now, and it is getting so old really fast! I have been awake for the past four nights coughing and I am exhausted. Kinda hard to lose weight when you are way too tired to even walk.

I have been on a steady decline and I am so close to my 40 lbs lost mark and my next magnet. I cannot wait. 41.8 is my halfway mark with Herbal Magic, although I am considering possibly continuing further after I am done with them. If I get down to 123.6 that will be 100lbs lost. The thought of that number, makes me happy.  It is a nice round number and would be much more impressive to say I lost 100 pounds.

We will see how hard it is for me to drop the pounds.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I did it!!

I reached my pre-pregnancy weight. 185 baby!! I literally jumped off the scale and danced all the way to the bedroom to wake up Scott and tell him. I haven't been this weight since 2007, and I am so freaking excited. The ironic thing is that when I weighed this previously, I thought I was fat and would have given anything to be skinnier. Now I would have given anything to be 185 LOL! But onward we go. My next small goal is to weigh less than Scott's heaviest weight (since he fluctuates so much during the day) which is 172. So I am shooting for 170. I am not gonna set a date though, I find when I do that I just get frustrated.

Going to the bridal fair today with my MOH and I hope to get some ideas for planning the wedding. I am excited!

My stats:

Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185 reached Feb 19th
New Small goal: 170
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 185
Weight lost: 38.8 lbs
Inches lost: 42 3/4

Friday, February 17, 2012

On my way...

So close so close so close!!!! 186.2 this morning! I am hoping to see my small goal and pre pregnancy weight of 185 tomorrow, or by Monday at the latest. Doable, I have lost 1.2 in one day many times before. I am drinking loads and loads of water today, and I will eat a banana later as it is great for getting your sodium in line.

I have been so freaking sick for a few days now, and I am so OVER IT!!! Not getting a lot of sleep at night, because I wake up 50 million times a night in a coughing fit. :(

4.8 down for the week, and I am already starting my next week with a good drop. It is wonderful to see the numbers dropping again finally. I really hate being on a plateau. It is so hard to break them, when you cannot change the diet too much. I have a lot of variety, but having trouble loving everything that I should be eating.

Anyways my updated stats are:

Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 186.2
Weight lost: 37.6 lbs
Inches lost: 42 3/4

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Jinx

I don't want to jinx myself, but Wednesdays are my weekly weigh in record days. This week saw me drop 4.8 lbs! my second biggest drop to date... I think. My first week was also 4.8 lbs. Pretty darn proud of myself.

Every time I see a good drop, I get excited and then I go in 2 days later and I am up... I guess I am a bit cynical about it. I don't want to jinx myself. Could this be an end to the plateau?

My muscles were definitely retaining water to repair themselves after the 30 lb stair challenge. I was expecting a drop like this. So I have about 45 more to go before I reach my goal. I am still VERY behind, but it is coming off. Although I was supposed to be at 173 today. I just figured out that if I can shoot for 3 lbs a week, I will still meet my goal date. That is a scary goal, and I don't think it will work out in the end... if it does it does, and if it doesn't I will get there one day.

17 weeks left until my goal date. It is going so fast!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Shocker!

First of all I want to say that I am feeling frustration. I hit 193.6 (30lbs lost) on Christmas eve. The lowest I have gotten since then is 186.2, that was before my TOM in January. The day before my cycle started I shot up to 191, and then during that time I went up to as high as 192.8... ugh. I slowed down my exercise a lot since Christmas because I just don't have the time to do it. I still was doing the 30 day shred and various other little exercises, but as for getting to the gym (with my bad foot as an excuse) I barely ever get there anymore. But I prefer swimming anyways.

I have been losing and gaining the same 4 or 5 lbs since then, I get down to 187 and then shoot back up again. So very frustrating. They dropped my food to the smaller portions again and I was very hungry at first, but now I am good and unfortunately barely have an appetite (Which I contribute to the worst cold I have had in my life, HOLY EFF!).

Yesterday I went in, and was down to 189.0... whoopee! But I was not so excited because I have seen the number before 50 times. My graph on MFP looks like sharks teeth :( So L @ HM says we have to get down to the root of the problem and find out why I am not losing. The decision she made was to take away my free exchange (essentially 0 sugar other than my two fruit servings worth). This is going to be hard for me, because I always get snackish in the evenings (especially when Scott is working evenings and I am alone after kidlet goes to sleep). Moreso though, I have a lot of trouble getting to my 1200 calorie minimum with the free exchange. So I am now NOT allowed to exercise other than a 30 minute walk a day.

I am putting a lot of money into this, so I will do it. Let's see if it works. I feel horrible though. She said the program is designed so that you don't have to exercise to lose weight, and by exercising as much as I do, I require more nourishment (which I was giving myself).

So I weighed in today expecting to see the 191 after the 189 I saw yesterday (which happens every time) and I saw 186.8. WHAT?? I am shocked. Does this mean I am on the losing track again? Man I hope so. I am so far behind and I just want to catch up.

Happy Valentines Day!

My stats:


Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 186.8
Weight lost: 37 lbs
Inches lost: 39

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Sore Muscles

I have been not working out so hard lately, and I have been stuck for 2 months in the 190's. So annoying!! So the last two days I decided to do my stairs, but add a little something extra. So I did the 1000 stairs with a backpack full of my weights. 30 lbs worth! Holy crap... my legs, arms, shoulders, back... everything is soooo sore! I feel great though. I put on two sweat shirts and thick sweat pants and we had the fire going so it was really toasty in the house. I was sweating like I have never sweat before. I hope this leads to a drop on the scale, because I am getting so frustrated. Although I am still losing inches, I want to hit my small goal of 185 so bad.

I was supposed to be 175 on Wednesday, and weighed in today at 191.8. EFF! It is ok, I am doing everything I should and my day will come.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Smaller sizes

I have been struggling lately with clothes. When I started this journey, I was a gastly size 18W pant and a 2XL in shirts. I was always ashamed to let anyone know that, and now I am amazed how far I have come.

I went to Value Village on their 50% off sale a month or two ago, and I picked up a bunch of jeans that no longer fit me and I never thought I would be able to buy a size 14, let alone the 12's I am in now that are starting to fall off me. I have 2 pairs of jeans that fit, but are loose and about 4 shirts that fit but are loose.

Thank heavens Scotts aunt stopped by and brought me some of her hand me downs and I now have some clothes to wear. I am also over the moon that mediums are loose and I FIT A SMALL!!!! OMG! The last time I was in a small I was... 13-15 years old. I cannot believe it.

I took a picture today:
This ribbon signifies how many inches I have lost so far. 39 in total! I think it is amazing to see it in something tangible instead of just a number. It is the same as my son is tall. I have lost a Caiden, height and weight, it is the same. WOW! That just hit me.

XOXO