Ok, I have not written in quite a while, and it is because I have been so busy. So busy, I do not even have time to brush my hair some days LOL!
I went into Herbal Magic at the end of June and told them that I wanted to go on stabilization. The fact that I had lost no more than 8 lbs in 6 months was stressful and depressing and I could no longer handle the pressure. So I began stabilization... which added more food to my plan. Immediately, I gained 3 lbs and I freaked out... I stopped going to them and I decided that I can and will do this on my own and save myself $500 a month. It has been nice not worrying about the judgement I got there (even though they were supposed to be supportive), and not worrying about how I was going to pay for all my pills for the month.
My file officially closes on August the 4th and since the end of June it has been a barrage of calls from them asking me where I have been (which I thank caller ID for the ability to screen such calls). I am just so sick of it.
I just didn't care for a few weeks and I ate like garbage (although still being aware of calorie counts). So I am 9 lbs up and working very hard to get them off again. My goal is still to hit 140-150lbs and I will do it. I am determined, and I will do it the healthy way.
I see all these people on My Fitness Pal who bitch about not losing weight, and all they do is no exercise and eat crap but stay under 1200 calories. crap is still crap, no matter how little you eat of it!
I have become a fan of smoothies lately, I pack those things full of veggies and fruit and put some protein in there, and it fills me up. Caiden even loves them (and he hates spinach). I have an awesome gym in my basement now, and I get really excited to use it every day. I mix cardio with weight training and I am excited to tone everything up and jiggle less... oh do I hate the jiggle.
Anyways, That is what is new with me.
