It's been a while

I quit Herbal Magic because I just couldn't afford it anymore. I have a wedding to pay for now, and shelling out over 400 bucks a month was just sucking me dry.

I got down to 182 with them, and immediately after quitting with them, I went nuts and ate EVERYTHING in sight. I gained 12 lbs back, and now I can't lose anything. I lose something and then the next day it is back... I know that a lot of it is water retention, and I am eating properly again after my month of pigging out during camping and what not. I have my full gym downstairs that is just as hard to get into than if I had to leave my house to get to the gym. Caiden doesn't allow me a lot of time on my own to exercise. It is so stressful!

I have until April to lose the weight that I need to lose. That is when my wedding dress will be ready and I will have to get it altered. I know I can do it. I am renewed and so determined. I am not setting a number on what I want to lose, because I don't want to let myself disappointed.

I have 25 weeks... to lose 1-2 lbs each week. This is doable.

I am going to commit to recording everything I eat on MFP, and cut down my sugar and bread intake. These are really my vices, and I cannot seem to avoid them.

I have felt really alone in this lately, I used to have people behind me, encouraging me and pushing me to succeed... I feel like that has just gone away. So I will do what I normally do, and put my head down and do it on my own.

I will try to write in my blog as much as possible... even if it is really just writing to myself.