Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Past the hurdle
Including the weight loss I did on my own before I started Herbal Magic, I have lost 54 lbs. With Herbal Magic so far I have lost 45 lbs. I am over the hurdle of that stupid plateau I was stuck on for 4 months... and the funny thing is, it was going to that spa weekend and pigging out on endless tapas that got me over this hurdle. Ignoring my diet and my portions for just one night. Since then, I lost about 10 lbs. I had been losing and gaining the same 5 lbs for so long, it didn't seem real when the numbers started to drop again.
The stress of this last couple of months spending all this money on this diet and not seeing any results has been making me feel so guilty. Guilty for taking money away from activities I could be doing with my 4 year old and my fiance. Not wanting to exercise, or do anything really. But exercising to the point of wanting to throw up because nothing was happening. Feeling so lost, and so alone.... even though I had my love and my best friend behind me no matter what. Trying to stay positive, but struggling with it because all hope seemed lost for ever getting past the point I was stuck at. I spent the most part of my life in the 180's, my weight only started to climb after I had Caiden. I have been wondering for a while if this is where I was meant to be, but I still jiggle and I will not accept that this is where it ends.
So I am in the 170's now and I will fight to get it off. My goal will always be 140 (unless I get to 150 and like how I feel and look) and my new goal is 64 inches off (at least). That would be my height and I just have to lose 12.5 more inches to get there. I am positive, I am renewed. I can do this.
So here are my stats:
The stress of this last couple of months spending all this money on this diet and not seeing any results has been making me feel so guilty. Guilty for taking money away from activities I could be doing with my 4 year old and my fiance. Not wanting to exercise, or do anything really. But exercising to the point of wanting to throw up because nothing was happening. Feeling so lost, and so alone.... even though I had my love and my best friend behind me no matter what. Trying to stay positive, but struggling with it because all hope seemed lost for ever getting past the point I was stuck at. I spent the most part of my life in the 180's, my weight only started to climb after I had Caiden. I have been wondering for a while if this is where I was meant to be, but I still jiggle and I will not accept that this is where it ends.
So I am in the 170's now and I will fight to get it off. My goal will always be 140 (unless I get to 150 and like how I feel and look) and my new goal is 64 inches off (at least). That would be my height and I just have to lose 12.5 more inches to get there. I am positive, I am renewed. I can do this.
So here are my stats:
Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185 reached Feb 19th
New Small goal: 170
New Small goal: 170
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 178.2
Weight lost: 45.2 lbs
Inches lost: 51.5
Friday, May 11, 2012
Such an awesome week
After months of not losing anything, I was getting so freaking stressed out. Not a happy camper at all. I haven't been writing in this blog, because 1. no one reads it anyways and 2. I feel like it is a waste of time since nothing is happening. I feel like the support I had has just fizzled away, and people I thought were my friends... really were not friends at all. Now I know. The people that have supported me all along are awesome and I love you all for it. You know who you are.
Anyways, after the struggle I have been having, I went on a girls only spa retreat weekend. I NEEDED IT!!! I had a plan for food, and I stuck with it for the most part. I went to HM on Friday on my way up there and the lady I... dislike, was the one to see me. I was slightly up on the scale from the day before, and she made me feel like shit for it... what kind of support is that? She told me that when I came in on Monday, I would be up regardless of my plan to bring healthy food and utilize the gym while I was there.
I brought grilled chicken, HM protein drinks, fruit and veggies, and water. I did have the endless tapas though on spa day. I followed my plan just about 100% and I felt so good about it. I stepped on the scale on Monday morning and saw a 2lb drop.
I started a fruit cleanse on Monday and Tuesday, which you can only do once a month. After this I saw a further 2.8 lbs gone. So, I think I am starting to drop again *fingers crossed*. I will not hit my goal date of June 12th, but that is ok. I will finish this!
Anyways, after the struggle I have been having, I went on a girls only spa retreat weekend. I NEEDED IT!!! I had a plan for food, and I stuck with it for the most part. I went to HM on Friday on my way up there and the lady I... dislike, was the one to see me. I was slightly up on the scale from the day before, and she made me feel like shit for it... what kind of support is that? She told me that when I came in on Monday, I would be up regardless of my plan to bring healthy food and utilize the gym while I was there.
I brought grilled chicken, HM protein drinks, fruit and veggies, and water. I did have the endless tapas though on spa day. I followed my plan just about 100% and I felt so good about it. I stepped on the scale on Monday morning and saw a 2lb drop.
I started a fruit cleanse on Monday and Tuesday, which you can only do once a month. After this I saw a further 2.8 lbs gone. So, I think I am starting to drop again *fingers crossed*. I will not hit my goal date of June 12th, but that is ok. I will finish this!
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