It has been so long since I have posted anything. I have been so busy with planning our wedding, being home with Caiden, working on photo edits... just so much going on. My body has been suffering and I have been eating my feelings a lot. I have not lost of gained a pound since the last time I blogged, which I will take as a win because I ate like crap over the holidays.
I watched a documentary called Hungry For Change the other night and it was like a light bulb went off in my head. I have written a weekly meal plan for myself and I have been having the most delicious fruit and veggie (Mostly veggie) smoothies that are so filling it is helping a lot.
I went back on birth control about 6 months ago, and that is when the weight gain started. I cannot wait to go off of it again and try to have another baby. Not long now, just have to wait until the wedding is over and possibly the honeymoon.
I am no longer going to be dieting. I will just eat cleaner and stay active. That is all anyone can really do.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Friday, October 12, 2012
Rants
Not weight loss related in any way... But it has been a rough day and I need to get this off my chest.
I have been actively trying to potty train my darling boy Caiden for close to a year now. I never really pushed it at first, I just kind of let it happen when it happened. At first it was fine, he would pee on the potty and YAY's would be yelled and treats would be had blah blah blah... He had a really good streak of pooping on the potty and I really thought he had it, and we would not have to buy another box of stupid diapers again... well until we have another (although, I believe I am going cloth the next time). He has reverted back to crapping in his pants and keeps telling me that "I just didn't use the potty"... no shit you didn't use the potty.
I have always been a super laid back parent, and never really forced anything on him other than basic safety common sense stuff... but it is getting ridiculous, and I am starting to get the attitude from other parents and...*cringe* non parents. I don't know what to do anymore and it is starting to make me rage. I physically need to walk away from him after he comes to me and tells me he pooped in his pants.
Add to it the fact that since this darling child of mine has turned 4, he has become Satan incarnate. He throws temper tantrums only at home (never at grandparents house), will not listen to me or Scott and his favorite word is NO. I am soooooooo over the 4's! Although he is pretty freaking funny.
So that is my rant about Caiden...
My other rant...
I have always been a good tipper, and I understand it is a hard job to have (waitressing), but! You seat your guests, you take their orders, someone else brings out the food, and I sit there with an empty cup for almost an hour all the while you have been to the table next to me 6 times. I wanted to bring half of my dinner home because after all, I am trying to lose weight... but do you come back to see if I am ok, to see if I need anything... to give me the bill even? Nope, so while my son hides under the table to crap himself and I sit there seething because I don't want to waste my food and no one is helping me, I decide I will never return to your restaurant. You are lucky I gave you the little tip I did give you, and I didn't even get to take my food home.
grrrrrrr!
I have been actively trying to potty train my darling boy Caiden for close to a year now. I never really pushed it at first, I just kind of let it happen when it happened. At first it was fine, he would pee on the potty and YAY's would be yelled and treats would be had blah blah blah... He had a really good streak of pooping on the potty and I really thought he had it, and we would not have to buy another box of stupid diapers again... well until we have another (although, I believe I am going cloth the next time). He has reverted back to crapping in his pants and keeps telling me that "I just didn't use the potty"... no shit you didn't use the potty.
I have always been a super laid back parent, and never really forced anything on him other than basic safety common sense stuff... but it is getting ridiculous, and I am starting to get the attitude from other parents and...*cringe* non parents. I don't know what to do anymore and it is starting to make me rage. I physically need to walk away from him after he comes to me and tells me he pooped in his pants.
Add to it the fact that since this darling child of mine has turned 4, he has become Satan incarnate. He throws temper tantrums only at home (never at grandparents house), will not listen to me or Scott and his favorite word is NO. I am soooooooo over the 4's! Although he is pretty freaking funny.
So that is my rant about Caiden...
My other rant...
I have always been a good tipper, and I understand it is a hard job to have (waitressing), but! You seat your guests, you take their orders, someone else brings out the food, and I sit there with an empty cup for almost an hour all the while you have been to the table next to me 6 times. I wanted to bring half of my dinner home because after all, I am trying to lose weight... but do you come back to see if I am ok, to see if I need anything... to give me the bill even? Nope, so while my son hides under the table to crap himself and I sit there seething because I don't want to waste my food and no one is helping me, I decide I will never return to your restaurant. You are lucky I gave you the little tip I did give you, and I didn't even get to take my food home.
grrrrrrr!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
It's been a while
I quit Herbal Magic because I just couldn't afford it anymore. I have a wedding to pay for now, and shelling out over 400 bucks a month was just sucking me dry.
I got down to 182 with them, and immediately after quitting with them, I went nuts and ate EVERYTHING in sight. I gained 12 lbs back, and now I can't lose anything. I lose something and then the next day it is back... I know that a lot of it is water retention, and I am eating properly again after my month of pigging out during camping and what not. I have my full gym downstairs that is just as hard to get into than if I had to leave my house to get to the gym. Caiden doesn't allow me a lot of time on my own to exercise. It is so stressful!
I have until April to lose the weight that I need to lose. That is when my wedding dress will be ready and I will have to get it altered. I know I can do it. I am renewed and so determined. I am not setting a number on what I want to lose, because I don't want to let myself disappointed.
I have 25 weeks... to lose 1-2 lbs each week. This is doable.
I am going to commit to recording everything I eat on MFP, and cut down my sugar and bread intake. These are really my vices, and I cannot seem to avoid them.
I have felt really alone in this lately, I used to have people behind me, encouraging me and pushing me to succeed... I feel like that has just gone away. So I will do what I normally do, and put my head down and do it on my own.
I will try to write in my blog as much as possible... even if it is really just writing to myself.
I got down to 182 with them, and immediately after quitting with them, I went nuts and ate EVERYTHING in sight. I gained 12 lbs back, and now I can't lose anything. I lose something and then the next day it is back... I know that a lot of it is water retention, and I am eating properly again after my month of pigging out during camping and what not. I have my full gym downstairs that is just as hard to get into than if I had to leave my house to get to the gym. Caiden doesn't allow me a lot of time on my own to exercise. It is so stressful!
I have until April to lose the weight that I need to lose. That is when my wedding dress will be ready and I will have to get it altered. I know I can do it. I am renewed and so determined. I am not setting a number on what I want to lose, because I don't want to let myself disappointed.
I have 25 weeks... to lose 1-2 lbs each week. This is doable.
I am going to commit to recording everything I eat on MFP, and cut down my sugar and bread intake. These are really my vices, and I cannot seem to avoid them.
I have felt really alone in this lately, I used to have people behind me, encouraging me and pushing me to succeed... I feel like that has just gone away. So I will do what I normally do, and put my head down and do it on my own.
I will try to write in my blog as much as possible... even if it is really just writing to myself.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
off track...
Ok, I have not written in quite a while, and it is because I have been so busy. So busy, I do not even have time to brush my hair some days LOL!
I went into Herbal Magic at the end of June and told them that I wanted to go on stabilization. The fact that I had lost no more than 8 lbs in 6 months was stressful and depressing and I could no longer handle the pressure. So I began stabilization... which added more food to my plan. Immediately, I gained 3 lbs and I freaked out... I stopped going to them and I decided that I can and will do this on my own and save myself $500 a month. It has been nice not worrying about the judgement I got there (even though they were supposed to be supportive), and not worrying about how I was going to pay for all my pills for the month.
My file officially closes on August the 4th and since the end of June it has been a barrage of calls from them asking me where I have been (which I thank caller ID for the ability to screen such calls). I am just so sick of it.
I just didn't care for a few weeks and I ate like garbage (although still being aware of calorie counts). So I am 9 lbs up and working very hard to get them off again. My goal is still to hit 140-150lbs and I will do it. I am determined, and I will do it the healthy way.
I see all these people on My Fitness Pal who bitch about not losing weight, and all they do is no exercise and eat crap but stay under 1200 calories. crap is still crap, no matter how little you eat of it!
I have become a fan of smoothies lately, I pack those things full of veggies and fruit and put some protein in there, and it fills me up. Caiden even loves them (and he hates spinach). I have an awesome gym in my basement now, and I get really excited to use it every day. I mix cardio with weight training and I am excited to tone everything up and jiggle less... oh do I hate the jiggle.
Anyways, That is what is new with me.
I went into Herbal Magic at the end of June and told them that I wanted to go on stabilization. The fact that I had lost no more than 8 lbs in 6 months was stressful and depressing and I could no longer handle the pressure. So I began stabilization... which added more food to my plan. Immediately, I gained 3 lbs and I freaked out... I stopped going to them and I decided that I can and will do this on my own and save myself $500 a month. It has been nice not worrying about the judgement I got there (even though they were supposed to be supportive), and not worrying about how I was going to pay for all my pills for the month.
My file officially closes on August the 4th and since the end of June it has been a barrage of calls from them asking me where I have been (which I thank caller ID for the ability to screen such calls). I am just so sick of it.
I just didn't care for a few weeks and I ate like garbage (although still being aware of calorie counts). So I am 9 lbs up and working very hard to get them off again. My goal is still to hit 140-150lbs and I will do it. I am determined, and I will do it the healthy way.
I see all these people on My Fitness Pal who bitch about not losing weight, and all they do is no exercise and eat crap but stay under 1200 calories. crap is still crap, no matter how little you eat of it!
I have become a fan of smoothies lately, I pack those things full of veggies and fruit and put some protein in there, and it fills me up. Caiden even loves them (and he hates spinach). I have an awesome gym in my basement now, and I get really excited to use it every day. I mix cardio with weight training and I am excited to tone everything up and jiggle less... oh do I hate the jiggle.
Anyways, That is what is new with me.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Sorry
I haven't written in my blog for so long... there wasn't much point. I have been really busy with Caidens 4th birthday and we are doing renovations on our house. My goal date came and went with still 40ish lbs to lose, and I was really upset about it. It was always my goal to get there before they told me I would do it. That is just the type of person I am, but maybe my drive was just a little too much. I am still hovering around 179-184 depending on the day. I just cannot seem to break past this point no matter what I do. I am not going to be stressed out about it anymore.
I have talked repeatedly to the ladies at HM about my progress and lack thereof. I know I could do it on my own... I know I have the tools, but they just keep telling me that if I quit with them "where will that get me". I just hate being so unhappy with the scale not moving, and I know if I wasn't putting so much money into this diet, I would not be so stressed about it.
Stats:
I have talked repeatedly to the ladies at HM about my progress and lack thereof. I know I could do it on my own... I know I have the tools, but they just keep telling me that if I quit with them "where will that get me". I just hate being so unhappy with the scale not moving, and I know if I wasn't putting so much money into this diet, I would not be so stressed about it.
Stats:
Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185 reached Feb 19th
New Small goal: 170
New Small goal: 170
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 180.8
Weight lost: 43 lbs
Inches lost: 52.5
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Past the hurdle
Including the weight loss I did on my own before I started Herbal Magic, I have lost 54 lbs. With Herbal Magic so far I have lost 45 lbs. I am over the hurdle of that stupid plateau I was stuck on for 4 months... and the funny thing is, it was going to that spa weekend and pigging out on endless tapas that got me over this hurdle. Ignoring my diet and my portions for just one night. Since then, I lost about 10 lbs. I had been losing and gaining the same 5 lbs for so long, it didn't seem real when the numbers started to drop again.
The stress of this last couple of months spending all this money on this diet and not seeing any results has been making me feel so guilty. Guilty for taking money away from activities I could be doing with my 4 year old and my fiance. Not wanting to exercise, or do anything really. But exercising to the point of wanting to throw up because nothing was happening. Feeling so lost, and so alone.... even though I had my love and my best friend behind me no matter what. Trying to stay positive, but struggling with it because all hope seemed lost for ever getting past the point I was stuck at. I spent the most part of my life in the 180's, my weight only started to climb after I had Caiden. I have been wondering for a while if this is where I was meant to be, but I still jiggle and I will not accept that this is where it ends.
So I am in the 170's now and I will fight to get it off. My goal will always be 140 (unless I get to 150 and like how I feel and look) and my new goal is 64 inches off (at least). That would be my height and I just have to lose 12.5 more inches to get there. I am positive, I am renewed. I can do this.
So here are my stats:
The stress of this last couple of months spending all this money on this diet and not seeing any results has been making me feel so guilty. Guilty for taking money away from activities I could be doing with my 4 year old and my fiance. Not wanting to exercise, or do anything really. But exercising to the point of wanting to throw up because nothing was happening. Feeling so lost, and so alone.... even though I had my love and my best friend behind me no matter what. Trying to stay positive, but struggling with it because all hope seemed lost for ever getting past the point I was stuck at. I spent the most part of my life in the 180's, my weight only started to climb after I had Caiden. I have been wondering for a while if this is where I was meant to be, but I still jiggle and I will not accept that this is where it ends.
So I am in the 170's now and I will fight to get it off. My goal will always be 140 (unless I get to 150 and like how I feel and look) and my new goal is 64 inches off (at least). That would be my height and I just have to lose 12.5 more inches to get there. I am positive, I am renewed. I can do this.
So here are my stats:
Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185 reached Feb 19th
New Small goal: 170
New Small goal: 170
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 178.2
Weight lost: 45.2 lbs
Inches lost: 51.5
Friday, May 11, 2012
Such an awesome week
After months of not losing anything, I was getting so freaking stressed out. Not a happy camper at all. I haven't been writing in this blog, because 1. no one reads it anyways and 2. I feel like it is a waste of time since nothing is happening. I feel like the support I had has just fizzled away, and people I thought were my friends... really were not friends at all. Now I know. The people that have supported me all along are awesome and I love you all for it. You know who you are.
Anyways, after the struggle I have been having, I went on a girls only spa retreat weekend. I NEEDED IT!!! I had a plan for food, and I stuck with it for the most part. I went to HM on Friday on my way up there and the lady I... dislike, was the one to see me. I was slightly up on the scale from the day before, and she made me feel like shit for it... what kind of support is that? She told me that when I came in on Monday, I would be up regardless of my plan to bring healthy food and utilize the gym while I was there.
I brought grilled chicken, HM protein drinks, fruit and veggies, and water. I did have the endless tapas though on spa day. I followed my plan just about 100% and I felt so good about it. I stepped on the scale on Monday morning and saw a 2lb drop.
I started a fruit cleanse on Monday and Tuesday, which you can only do once a month. After this I saw a further 2.8 lbs gone. So, I think I am starting to drop again *fingers crossed*. I will not hit my goal date of June 12th, but that is ok. I will finish this!
Anyways, after the struggle I have been having, I went on a girls only spa retreat weekend. I NEEDED IT!!! I had a plan for food, and I stuck with it for the most part. I went to HM on Friday on my way up there and the lady I... dislike, was the one to see me. I was slightly up on the scale from the day before, and she made me feel like shit for it... what kind of support is that? She told me that when I came in on Monday, I would be up regardless of my plan to bring healthy food and utilize the gym while I was there.
I brought grilled chicken, HM protein drinks, fruit and veggies, and water. I did have the endless tapas though on spa day. I followed my plan just about 100% and I felt so good about it. I stepped on the scale on Monday morning and saw a 2lb drop.
I started a fruit cleanse on Monday and Tuesday, which you can only do once a month. After this I saw a further 2.8 lbs gone. So, I think I am starting to drop again *fingers crossed*. I will not hit my goal date of June 12th, but that is ok. I will finish this!
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Finding success...
Finding success in the little things, this has always been a struggle for me. Seeing my goals and sticking with them is so hard. I have lost and gained the same 5 lbs for the last 4 months and cried about it. But seeing the success of inches still falling off me, has eluded me. Why can't I just forget the number on the scale?
I was told to write myself a nurture list. 10 things I could do FOR MYSELF!!! that would give me a release from the stress of the number not moving on the scale. So I wrote a list of the things I love to do to release stress... very first on the list is singing. Something that I am so good at, and I never really get to do, so I am going to get back into it, and sing my heart out. Because I deserve to give myself something too.
I have my home gym downstairs set up, and the other day I made some posters that have quotes on them that I have found inspiration to continue my journey. Things like "NOTHING tastes as good as skinny feels" , and "Strength is just a frame of mind, own it!" I look at them to pump myself up. It feels great.
Stats:
I was told to write myself a nurture list. 10 things I could do FOR MYSELF!!! that would give me a release from the stress of the number not moving on the scale. So I wrote a list of the things I love to do to release stress... very first on the list is singing. Something that I am so good at, and I never really get to do, so I am going to get back into it, and sing my heart out. Because I deserve to give myself something too.
I have my home gym downstairs set up, and the other day I made some posters that have quotes on them that I have found inspiration to continue my journey. Things like "NOTHING tastes as good as skinny feels" , and "Strength is just a frame of mind, own it!" I look at them to pump myself up. It feels great.
Stats:
Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185 reached Feb 19th
New Small goal: 170
New Small goal: 170
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 181.2
Weight lost: 42.6 lbs
Inches lost: 49.5
Sunday, April 22, 2012
So far beyond frustrated...
I am so far beyond frustrated that my weight loss has stalled, I don't even think there is a word for what I am right now. I hit 189.8 on December 31st, and here I am STILL in the 180's almost 4 months later. I have done everything I am supposed to do, and it is so hard not to break down and run to Timmies and buy a dozen donuts and the biggest iced capp I can get. I keep thinking what the hell is the point of doing everything I am doing.
I miss KD! I miss Pepsi!
I lose 5 lbs, and then I get my TOM and gain that back... it has happened for 4 months now. How do I not lose my focus when this keeps happening?
I am getting a nice little gym downstairs, I have a recumbent bike, and elliptical and now a treadmill. Scott wants to get a home gym to do strength training, but that will come later. I hung the ribbon from my last measurement down there as a reminder that I am still losing inches. Thanks to Pinterest I made one of these:
Now that I see the beads in the vases, it doesn't look as impressive. But there I go making light of the pounds that I have lost... It is no small feat and I should be proud of myself. So why can I not be proud of myself?
I NEED TO REMEMBER THIS!!!!
Scott and I have been exercising together, I found some workouts on another blog that I follow, so we have been mixing these with the elliptical and treadmill.
I miss KD! I miss Pepsi!
I lose 5 lbs, and then I get my TOM and gain that back... it has happened for 4 months now. How do I not lose my focus when this keeps happening?
I am getting a nice little gym downstairs, I have a recumbent bike, and elliptical and now a treadmill. Scott wants to get a home gym to do strength training, but that will come later. I hung the ribbon from my last measurement down there as a reminder that I am still losing inches. Thanks to Pinterest I made one of these:
Scott and I have been exercising together, I found some workouts on another blog that I follow, so we have been mixing these with the elliptical and treadmill.
Friday, April 13, 2012
The Fight - Lights out
The Fight for the PS3... all I can say is OMG. I never thought a boxing game could make me hurt so good. I guess I am a little crazy, but the best feeling int he world is the pain you feel when your muscles are in repair. That is how I am feeling today. I cannot lift my arms and my back is so sore!
A nice break from my usual, I went to my besties house yesterday and played this game and burned 402 calories. I can feel my Triceps without flexing now, I fit into small shirts (EEEEEEEEE!!!!!).
Although my weight has stalled, and I am so incredibly behind where I should be, I am still losing inches. I am encouraged still. I am pretty sure however, I will be doing HM for the rest of my life... or my body is just never going to be less than 180.
I just want to order my damn wedding dress LOL!!!
The ladies at HM gave me a nice card of condolence for Lucky passing away. It was very nice, and made me cry.
A nice break from my usual, I went to my besties house yesterday and played this game and burned 402 calories. I can feel my Triceps without flexing now, I fit into small shirts (EEEEEEEEE!!!!!).
Although my weight has stalled, and I am so incredibly behind where I should be, I am still losing inches. I am encouraged still. I am pretty sure however, I will be doing HM for the rest of my life... or my body is just never going to be less than 180.
I just want to order my damn wedding dress LOL!!!
The ladies at HM gave me a nice card of condolence for Lucky passing away. It was very nice, and made me cry.
Monday, April 9, 2012
RIP
I had a wonderful Easter, full of hunts, and brunch, family and friends. I was great, I didn't eat any chocolate. It was a wonderful day, until we put Caiden to bed and then tried to find our cat Lucky. Sadly we found him in the back yard. I didn't see, but Scott said he looked mangled. I am so sad. Last night I just wanted to gorge myself on everything I could get my hands on... especially Pepsi.
I haven't spoke of my addiction to Pepsi as of yet, I don't think. I believe it is like... a drug I guess. I crave it so bad, and when I get it... even a sip, I look like those heroin users on Intervention after they have shot the needle thing in their arm. It is that bad.
All I wanted last night, was that euphoria that I feel when I drink it. But alas, there was none in the house. Today, I have 0 appetite, and I have spent the day in a numb stupor. Yes, yes, he was just a cat, but he was a member of the family and I will miss him dearly... as will Caiden.
RIP Lucky Lager. Thanks for being so good with Caiden. We love you.
I haven't spoke of my addiction to Pepsi as of yet, I don't think. I believe it is like... a drug I guess. I crave it so bad, and when I get it... even a sip, I look like those heroin users on Intervention after they have shot the needle thing in their arm. It is that bad.
All I wanted last night, was that euphoria that I feel when I drink it. But alas, there was none in the house. Today, I have 0 appetite, and I have spent the day in a numb stupor. Yes, yes, he was just a cat, but he was a member of the family and I will miss him dearly... as will Caiden.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
They are back...
Well, the in-laws are back from their winter away down south, and I get to go home soon and have life be back to normal. I get to have an actual room dedicated to gym equipment (even better now since I scored an elliptical off of freecycle) and a comfortable place to continue my Insanity workouts.
The biggest news I have to share today is my weigh in yesterday.... slightly up, which I am annoyed about, but in doing my measurements we discovered that I have now lost 3/4 of an inch off my thighs. Now I know this doesn't seem like an amazing feat and nothing to be excited or impressed about... BUT! The last time the number changed on my thigh measurement was 1 week after I started HM, back in September. It has always been the number I was most excited to see move. I hope it continues.
The biggest news I have to share today is my weigh in yesterday.... slightly up, which I am annoyed about, but in doing my measurements we discovered that I have now lost 3/4 of an inch off my thighs. Now I know this doesn't seem like an amazing feat and nothing to be excited or impressed about... BUT! The last time the number changed on my thigh measurement was 1 week after I started HM, back in September. It has always been the number I was most excited to see move. I hope it continues.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Fit Test take 2
I did my second fit test after taking the week off due to illness, and I struggled through it blindly, and surprisingly did better.
Day 1 Fit Test: 1 minute per 2nd Fit test
Switch Kicks: 100 108
Power Jacks: 36 47
Power Knees: 63 75
Power Jumps: 35 54
Globe Jumps: 8 12
Suicide Jumps: 6 11
Push Up Jacks: 10 18
Low Plank Obliques: 40 62
Aside from hacking my lungs out throughout the entire workout, I am pretty stoked on my numbers. It also helps that I got new workout shoes that are like wearing pillows on my feet. NO PAIN!!! Love them.
Day 1 Fit Test: 1 minute per 2nd Fit test
Switch Kicks: 100 108
Power Jacks: 36 47
Power Knees: 63 75
Power Jumps: 35 54
Globe Jumps: 8 12
Suicide Jumps: 6 11
Push Up Jacks: 10 18
Low Plank Obliques: 40 62
Aside from hacking my lungs out throughout the entire workout, I am pretty stoked on my numbers. It also helps that I got new workout shoes that are like wearing pillows on my feet. NO PAIN!!! Love them.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
A wonderful week
Despite being sick!
1 month and 3 days ago I hit my prepregnancy weight of 185. 1 month ago I hit 184, just .2 away from getting my magnet. Within two days of that I got my TOM and shot up to 191. I wanted to cry, and have been battling being sick since then. I knew I was down today because I just felt and looked skinnier today, but after all the frustration of fighting to get back to that number, I told them I only want to know my weight once a week. So last week I didn't know what I weighed and I was on the leader board for lbs lost. I didn't even know haha. I stepped on the scale this morning and I saw 181.2. I am almost in the 170's and I am 7 lbs down for the week. Just about time to hit my TOM again, I am so so so hoping that I don't have to fight again.
Stats:
1 month and 3 days ago I hit my prepregnancy weight of 185. 1 month ago I hit 184, just .2 away from getting my magnet. Within two days of that I got my TOM and shot up to 191. I wanted to cry, and have been battling being sick since then. I knew I was down today because I just felt and looked skinnier today, but after all the frustration of fighting to get back to that number, I told them I only want to know my weight once a week. So last week I didn't know what I weighed and I was on the leader board for lbs lost. I didn't even know haha. I stepped on the scale this morning and I saw 181.2. I am almost in the 170's and I am 7 lbs down for the week. Just about time to hit my TOM again, I am so so so hoping that I don't have to fight again.
Stats:
Starting weight: 223.8
Small goal: 185 reached Feb 19th
New Small goal: 170
New Small goal: 170
Final goal: 140
Current weight: 181.2
Weight lost: 42.6 lbs
Inches lost: 46 1/2
Monday, March 19, 2012
Minor setback
I mentioned that I wasn't going to do Insanity until this cough went away, and I have been feeling crappy about that. But yesterday was spent in the emergency room because I could not breathe and I was hearing crackling when I took a breath. I spent a long time there waiting, and trying not to scare everyone away around me with my cough LOL. Got a chest xray, which showed my left lung 50% filled with fluid. UGH!
I am feeling a little better today, I have a puffer for when I cannot breathe and anti-biotics and today I am coughing up tons of disgustingness... fun!
The good news though, I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 181! I am not going to count it until I go into Herbal Magic though... The scale is old and I don't know if I should trust it LOL.
I am feeling a little better today, I have a puffer for when I cannot breathe and anti-biotics and today I am coughing up tons of disgustingness... fun!
The good news though, I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 181! I am not going to count it until I go into Herbal Magic though... The scale is old and I don't know if I should trust it LOL.
Friday, March 16, 2012
Sauna Culture...
So my bestie and I have been in the sauna a LOT. We often talk about what we call "Sauna Culture". What this means is that no matter who you are... in the sauna it doesn't matter, you can get in on the conversation.
We made a game of it, we would go into a sauna and start talking about woman things; babies, wedding planning, cooking... anything we could think of that we thought men would have no interest in gabbing about. Sure enough, everyone in the sauna would chime in at one point or another about the topics we started.
I love dominating the conversation and seeing what people will actually talk about in there. It is pretty funny.
I have this nasty phlegmy cough that is stopping me in my tracks. So I have decided to hold off on Insanity until I have my breath back again. I was supposed to do my 2nd fit test today, but I can not make it through the cardio right now. This makes me really sad. I hope I don't lose my stamina. I have been doing push ups and sit ups every night though. V-push ups are my mortal enemy and I hate them, but I have been doing 30 a night. They are supposed to help your shoulder muscles apparently. We will see.
We made a game of it, we would go into a sauna and start talking about woman things; babies, wedding planning, cooking... anything we could think of that we thought men would have no interest in gabbing about. Sure enough, everyone in the sauna would chime in at one point or another about the topics we started.
I love dominating the conversation and seeing what people will actually talk about in there. It is pretty funny.
I have this nasty phlegmy cough that is stopping me in my tracks. So I have decided to hold off on Insanity until I have my breath back again. I was supposed to do my 2nd fit test today, but I can not make it through the cardio right now. This makes me really sad. I hope I don't lose my stamina. I have been doing push ups and sit ups every night though. V-push ups are my mortal enemy and I hate them, but I have been doing 30 a night. They are supposed to help your shoulder muscles apparently. We will see.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Days 10 -13
I haven't posted after my workouts the last couple of days because... well... they are the same workouts I started with. I thought they would get easier, but instead they are getting harder. Not because my stamina isn't there, but instead it is because my heels and feet are killing me. I have pure cardio and cardio abs today (which I will do later) and then a rest day.
Thursday is to be my 2nd fit test, but I may take just one more rest day so that I let my ankles rest. I definitely can't wait to do the fit test to see if my numbers improve. Looking on the forums on MFP there are a lot of people who have done or are doing Insanity and their beginning numbers were very similar to me.
My weight is back to what it was when I started Insanity, so hopefully I will get my 40 lbs magnet shortly. Very frustrating dealing with the yo-yoing. I was .2 away from getting my magnet and then I got my TOM and shot up... been fighting to get back for 2 weeks now. Then TOM will come again and I will have to fight again. AHHHH! I am losing inches though, so that makes it ok... right?
Thursday is to be my 2nd fit test, but I may take just one more rest day so that I let my ankles rest. I definitely can't wait to do the fit test to see if my numbers improve. Looking on the forums on MFP there are a lot of people who have done or are doing Insanity and their beginning numbers were very similar to me.
My weight is back to what it was when I started Insanity, so hopefully I will get my 40 lbs magnet shortly. Very frustrating dealing with the yo-yoing. I was .2 away from getting my magnet and then I got my TOM and shot up... been fighting to get back for 2 weeks now. Then TOM will come again and I will have to fight again. AHHHH! I am losing inches though, so that makes it ok... right?
Friday, March 9, 2012
Day 9
It was pure cardio today and I had so much trouble with it. When I was going down the stairs yesterday I accidentally skipped two stairs and landed hard on my foot. So today doing all the jumping nearly killed me. I didn't give it my all and I am feeling guilty. We went to the pool as well and I swam for a long time.
I am going to attempt this one tomorrow in the morning and then do day 10 so I can stay on schedule. The mid week workout is a recovery workout, and I decided I am going to take that as a rest day from now on, so I can give my poor body a rest.
I am going to attempt this one tomorrow in the morning and then do day 10 so I can stay on schedule. The mid week workout is a recovery workout, and I decided I am going to take that as a rest day from now on, so I can give my poor body a rest.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Day 8
Cardio Power & Resistance: Completed for a second time. PHEW! I thought it would be slightly easier this time, and I had a rough time. I think maybe just one rest day doing this might not be enough. Although the middle of the week workout is just stretching and slow cardio, my muscles did not have enough time to stop hurting... All this jumping is killing my shins and ankles and knees, but I am powering through it. I know how to cushion my jumping so that my knee doesn't blow out like it did all those years ago playing tennis.
I am back down to where I was weight wise, so that is encouraging. I am so tired of getting mixed information from the ladies at HM. Some tell me no exercise other than walking (because I am not allowed the food to fuel my body), and others tell me I am doing the program how they would do the program, toning as I am losing the weight. Because I didn't want to get to the end and hate my body even more because I am one giant skin flap (I know I have previously said this) I give myself a bit extra food after my workouts and I am not starving myself. I look in the mirror and I am starting to feel good about my body... More than I have ever felt, because I have always hated my body and how I was shaped.
Trying on wedding dresses and seeing the hour glass figure that I have and always hated has made me change my opinion on my body. People tell me I am wasting away (in a good way) and that I am looking "sexy", "hot", "beautiful". These are never words that I attached to myself. I have more confidence and I want to keep it up and be a positive role model for those around me.
I have never had enough drive to see through anything to the end before, I always get bored and want to try something new. I feel great that I have gone this far, and I love seeing that big number on my weight loss ticker. It feels AMAZING!
I am back down to where I was weight wise, so that is encouraging. I am so tired of getting mixed information from the ladies at HM. Some tell me no exercise other than walking (because I am not allowed the food to fuel my body), and others tell me I am doing the program how they would do the program, toning as I am losing the weight. Because I didn't want to get to the end and hate my body even more because I am one giant skin flap (I know I have previously said this) I give myself a bit extra food after my workouts and I am not starving myself. I look in the mirror and I am starting to feel good about my body... More than I have ever felt, because I have always hated my body and how I was shaped.
Trying on wedding dresses and seeing the hour glass figure that I have and always hated has made me change my opinion on my body. People tell me I am wasting away (in a good way) and that I am looking "sexy", "hot", "beautiful". These are never words that I attached to myself. I have more confidence and I want to keep it up and be a positive role model for those around me.
I have never had enough drive to see through anything to the end before, I always get bored and want to try something new. I feel great that I have gone this far, and I love seeing that big number on my weight loss ticker. It feels AMAZING!
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